I don't even really know where to start. Writing is so cathartic for me, I know I need to get it all out, everything that's going on. Ok, well not everything but everything I can talk about. It's all so overwhelming I just wish I could barf it onto the screen. But that would be chunky and unpleasant yes?
God it's been a tough week. I guess I'll just blurt it out. Ben lost his job. So now we're out about 30% of our income (minus daycare which we don't need if he's unemployed) And trying to make everything work is going to be darn near impossible. He feels terrible, like a failure. I just feel like we were just getting settled after the last upheaval in our lives, why another one? It's really not fair.
We work hard, and we finally get into a doable situation and bammo. Luckily my friends have been really supportive. That's the other drama going on. Friends. Some I thought were more distant have really been awesome and supportive. Some I thought were my dear friends have sort of pushed me out of their lives. Though I guess I should have seen that coming... the signs have been there a long time. I don't have enough energy to keep it going so it fails. It's sad.
Work is going well I think. I wish I could get my review and my raise already... my boss is tres late.
Oh Halloween has been so fun so far. After I take pictures tomorrow night I'll post the pictures from my work Trick or Treating and around the neighborhood too. It will be a picture heavy post!
Well please keep us in your thoughts and prayers, we really need a lot of love and help. And thanks for being there for us. We love you!
5 comments:
Just when you think you're caught up, crap happens. I hate it. We're just now getting back form the apt fiasco, and I'm scared to see whats going to happen next...Ben's job, what it his manager from Hells doing?
I'm sorry that happened but when he finds a new job hopefully really soon id watch bekah if you want. i know what no money is like hope things get better fast. i love you guys.
Yes yes yes! I want a cool header, but I can't do it. Thank you!
I like the one with us in the corner and the gate on the whole other side. Thank you!
sometimes I fade in and out of being a good freind... I guess that makes me a bad one... Im sorry. but ummm my phone number has not changed in 6 years. you should text me your number and we'll get our familys together and have a dinner and game night !!! we live in magna now :)
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