What a week.

I don't even really know where to start. Writing is so cathartic for me, I know I need to get it all out, everything that's going on. Ok, well not everything but everything I can talk about. It's all so overwhelming I just wish I could barf it onto the screen. But that would be chunky and unpleasant yes?

God it's been a tough week. I guess I'll just blurt it out. Ben lost his job. So now we're out about 30% of our income (minus daycare which we don't need if he's unemployed) And trying to make everything work is going to be darn near impossible. He feels terrible, like a failure. I just feel like we were just getting settled after the last upheaval in our lives, why another one? It's really not fair.

We work hard, and we finally get into a doable situation and bammo. Luckily my friends have been really supportive. That's the other drama going on. Friends. Some I thought were more distant have really been awesome and supportive. Some I thought were my dear friends have sort of pushed me out of their lives. Though I guess I should have seen that coming... the signs have been there a long time. I don't have enough energy to keep it going so it fails. It's sad.

Work is going well I think. I wish I could get my review and my raise already... my boss is tres late.

Oh Halloween has been so fun so far. After I take pictures tomorrow night I'll post the pictures from my work Trick or Treating and around the neighborhood too. It will be a picture heavy post!

Well please keep us in your thoughts and prayers, we really need a lot of love and help. And thanks for being there for us. We love you!

Thoughts in Haiku. Sort of. Not really.

Sorry so long with no post. I'm eating one of ^those^ right now. Tres Tasty.

I had a very very very happy birthday! Thanks everyone who sent cards (THANKS BECCA!) and hung out with me (Honey... :D) I had a great time!!

Anyway not a lot going on with us, same old same old. Bekah's getting so big it makes me sad sometimes. I miss my baby girl... But now she's so much fun I'm glad she's growing.

Potty training is fun... but slow.

This is gonna be a short post I Think.

Oh, next week is ESOP week at WesTech. I finally am in the ESOP! YAY! So I feel a part of the company finally.

Ok... can't think of much else...

Night!

Mood Stabalizers: Chocolate and Grey's Anatomy.

So, thought I'd update you on my mood. Although, it is so unpredictable of late, you would probably need updates at least 5 times a day, but alas I don't think you'd like to read my blog THAT much...

Anyway we've had a couple of good turns of fate, and it looks like my photography skills, and Ben's Landscaping skills may help us out in the months to come, so hooray for that.

Ben also had an interview today for a new job that'd be back to what he was making before his pay cut, and that's the starting wage. So please keep us in your thoughts, we need this!

Bekah went on the potty 6 times last night. Yeah, that's right. She lets out just enough pee to make the potty chair make music, then gets a treat, then sits down again and does it over and over again. So I had to do two things. One, make sure she gets as much out as possible as she sits there. Two, get smaller potty treats.

Her whole body was just covered in chocolate from these little chocolate caramel cups. I originally bought bigger treats to reward her for going, because she rarely did, but now she's got the hang of it, imagine her after she's had 6 of those in a row! I'm still wiping chocolatey fingerprints off the whole house.

So this time I bought M&Ms. I figure the more she puts in the potty the more I'll give her, and reward her for doing all her business.

OK well enough of my daughter's urination. Have a lovely day!

Wow

That last post was my 100th. Happy 101st post everyone! :)

I haven't been posting much, because I haven't really been in a great mood these past weeks. Its not home life or anything, that is going just fine. It's just our financial situation has me up at night lately. The bad economy finally hit home for us. Ben got his pay cut by $1.50 an hour, and his hours by 8-10 hours a week.

Now the budget that was tight but functional is now no longer doable, and somethings have to change.

We're working on making everything work... but damn things are tight.

So anyway, this point of this little boo-hoo story is that the reason I've been neglecting my little bloggy, is because I was afraid any post I put here would be, well, a boo-hoo story.

So enough of that and on with the show. If you haven't checked out my phototography blog, you should: http://toniscottphotography.blogspot.com

I have a couple of photoshoots set up this month and will be updating it lots! :)

Happy Saturday everyone!